Tuesday, November 1, 2011

I confess

So this morning Chandler's at work, mom's at work, and Breagan is at school so here I am left all alone to solve the world's problems alone. Left alone with only the crazy thoughts in my head ;) So I felt I needed a confession blog. Here goes--Enjoy the rollercoaster haha




I confess that



*I'm OBSESSED with birds. and cats. I'm pretty sure that after we die we all come back as things that we loathed in life and Grandpa Keith HATED woodpeckers (because of the hell they raised at the cabin) and there is one in my backyard. I'm convinced it's Keith. I'm also enthralled by seagulls. and magpies. WHAT!?!? I have no idea why. They just make me laugh. Seagulls are the state bird and yet they hang out at trash piles....Interesting. And the magpies around my house chase my cat. It is highly amusing. And as for the cat part, I seriously almost attack a cat when I go to anyones house. A lady on my mom's street has a cat named Scooter and I've been planning his abduction for weeks. If only I could get Mojo to get along with him...




*I'm a closet school supply hoarder. I am DRAWN to the school supply aisles at stores. I could stand there for hours looking at all the crayons, markers, sharpies (for some reason my school supply of choice) paper, pencils, etc. I could go on for hours. And back to school time---don't even get me started. It's like HEAVEN.


*I have extreme anxiety. I actually take medication for it. But I notice that if I go through a certain 'routine' in the morning it cuts back on it immensely. Get up, get Breagan her juice and crackers (or whatever she will eat!) bathe, blow dry my hair, make bed, clean up living room, and vacuum. And in that order. If I don't have those things done before Chandler gets home for lunch, it's all downhill.


*I wish I was crafty. I have been trying to be a little moreso lately, but for some reason my brain lacks in that area. I'm obsessed with an app on my ipod called 'Craft Gawker'. It's a lot like Pintrest but for some reason it seems easier to navigate to me. Love It. It's a free download so totally go get it if you are into things like that.


*The past few days I have contemplated getting a concealed weapons permit. Why you may ask? I have an extreme phobia of being kidnapped. Now who in there right mind would kidnap me of all people I do not know (because heaven knows they would be bringing me STRAIGHT back after I yacked their ear off) but it still scares me to death. I think I watch entirely too much Investigation Discovery.


*I have to take periodic 'breaks' from Facebook because of how badly people irritate me.


*I also get angry that I can't post exactly how I feel on FB. Chandler tells me it would be bad for business. He's probably right.


*I call or talk to my mom at least 20 times a day. And I'm damn proud of it. I love my mom and I'm pretty sure that she should run for President next year and call me as her VP. We could solve the world's problems.


*If I could go back and do something over again, I would go back to high school just so I could change my self perception. I had a pretty low self esteem issue and I look back and think, "I could have been freaking awesome!" But then I think about all the crap that goes on in high school and I cringe at the thought of ever having to return. No Thank You.


*The 2 years of high school changed my life. Now, I do not care what people think of me for the most part. If you don't like me just because you don't like me, that's your deal. There's something wrong with you. But, if I did something to offend someone unintentionally, then I DO care and will do whatever it takes to make it right. I'm not a mean person. For the most part. ;)


*I'm pretty sure that God gave women a 6th sense. The one where you just can tell how someone is. I think it's because we are less able to protect ourselves. I always tell Chandler "there's just something about ____ that isn't right". And I'm usually on the money about it.


*I'm very hard on people. Especially with first impressions. It's hard to change my mind about you if it's already been made up. Not nessessarily a quality I am proud of, but just the way it is.


Okay, I think that I'm done for now. Just some of the CRAZY things runnin through my head this beautifully cold morning. Which brings me to one last thing....I'm a HUGE winter advocate. I dispise the summer with all of my being. But this year is a little different. The cold is hurting my bones. (does that mean I'm old???) Not sure how excited I am for the winter....






And for the finale--- I have an EXTREME obsession with 'animal machines'. Pretty sure I could spend my mortgage in them if given the chance. Case and point:










7 comments:

Clarissa and John said...

HAHA I love this blog post. Sometimes it feels good to just get it all out! Do you have a website for your photography? I would love to check it out!

karissa said...

Haha ash!! This is funny.. I feel the same way about some of the things you talked about. It feels good to vent... Sometimes I do it on fb and instead I should do a blog like u... I think ur hilarious!! And u have never been mean that I can think of....

Amber Baker said...

You are so funny. I love your quirks and all. Don't go back to high school. I find those people never grew up anyway...as far as the kidnapping thing, ever since gma and gpa were kidnapped, I'd say it's a real possibility. Haha on the woodpecker. Grandpa hated them....and potguts. :) I think of him often too. He's probably so busy running the grocery store in heaven...and yelling at someone over the intercom...;)

Shawna said...

Loved this, I knew alot of this stuff but enjoyed learning more. I dont know how I would have ever survived the time I lived in Sigurd without having you as my friend. I freaking love your guts and miss you like crazy

Tyson and Lana Hansen said...

Ha you crack me up! It feels good to get things like that off your chest once in a while huh? I feel the same way about high school, i had a low self esteem. I think high schoolers are so judgmental and mean that it literally scars others for life!! Oh and I love that you're obsessed with animal machines lol!! I hate those things! They pack them in so tight no one can get them out and it, makes me mad-so I'm anti-animal machines haha!

Nicole said...

Ok now, don't go stealing Scooter. My kids love that cat!!

Chandler*Ashley*Breagan said...

Thanks everyone for your comments! I guess I didn't realize that people actually read my blog haha :)

Clarissa- I do have a photography blog, but I don't really blog on it :( I just put most of my pics up on facebook. I'm going to start to try blogging on it more though. ashleyerdeiphotography.blogspot.com

Karissa-- Thanks for your sweet post! I'm glad that you don't think I've ever been mean! I try not to be!

Amber- I love the intercom thing! You KNOW he is totally doing that right now! And no, nothing could drag me back to that dark place called high school. So not worth my time :)

Shawna-- I miss you SO much! I saw Dallas the other night at El Mexicano and it brought so much back! We had some awesome times at therapy!

Lana-- It makes me SO mad that they pack those things the way they do! I think it totally fuels my addiction! I'm thinking 'oh, just one more dollar! I could TOTALLY get that!'

Nicole-- I won't steal Scooter....only because I have a girl cat and she is totally territorial and I think she wouldn't be too pleased with me bringing in another cat, especailly a male cat. But, I have totally thought about abducting him! I see him sitting out on the porch and it's all I can do not to stop and scoop him up and kiss on him!!! HaHa The crazy cat lady coming out in me! I'm glad that you kiddos like him! He needs lots of loves! :)