Amazing

Isn't it amazing how you can know someone, but sometimes not?? As ridiculous as this may sound, it's the honest truth. I mean, even if we know someone considerably well, do we really know what's going on inside of them? Do we really know the battles that they are fighting in their own minds?

Today was one of those days that it just hits you. Hits you that the people that matter most in your life can be fighting demons and you may not even know it.

Today my goal is to be more aware. More aware of the people around me. Especially the people that matter the most. Be more aware of one sentence, one statement, ONE WORD. Sometimes that's all it takes to realize that someone is struggling. Struggling with themselves and the world. Struggling with something that we may never even know exists until it's too late. I never want it to be too late. NEVER.

This is the life

Don't mind my SWEET hair. But I love this picture.

I love that Breagan has her foot on me.

And that she actually let me hold her for once and fell asleep.

And that she has a smile on her face while she's asleep. It makes me wonder what she is dreaming about....

It only lasted for about 30 minutes, but it was a wonderful 30 minutes.

I love this little girl.

I'm actually EXCITED for Halloween

I know. It's craziness. I've always HATED Halloween with a passion. I hated dressing up because I felt like an idiot. I hated wandering around the streets freezing my butt off BEGGING for candy. (I mean, let's be honest here, that's ultimately what it is) Well, I guess it's more like threatening strangers for candy because you basically tell them to give you candy or you will perform some act of violence to them or their property. (Trick-or-Treat... You think about it for a second)  

But anyway, I have deviated from the point. My point is, I am in absolute amazement that I am actually excited for it this year. But I'm pretty sure that this one picture will explain it all:

I love this little girl more than words can say, even if the last few days have been a bit of a struggle. She's been fighting a cold and the nights have been less than pleasant. But she is still a wonderful girl and I feel so blessed to have her in our home.

I'm so excited to see what she does when she knocks on the door of someone's house (yes, she's been practicing knocking LoL) and they give her candy! She has a sweet tooth like her momma and I can't wait to see her cute little face light up. She also LOVES to dress up. She's such a girly girl and I think that just being in a costume for most of the day tomorrow will put her in 7th heaven!

Creamy Ranch Dressing

 Isn't it amazing how one simple thought can set off a chain reaction of other thoughts/feelings? For some unknown reason, tonight I was thinking about creamy ranch dressing. I used to have chicken patties at my Grandma's house and dip it in creamy ranch dressing. This is what set into motion the following chain of thoughts.

It got me thinking about grandparents, which in turn got me thinking about my Grandma Bonnie. And how UNFAIR life can be. How unfair it was that she was taken from this earth at only 62 years old. How unfair it was that she left behind a family that loved her so much. How she had so much more life left to live. Which, got me thinking about death, and naturally got me thinking about JoJo.

Then I cried. And as I was thinking about death and how unfair it is, it got me thinking of my own life and how certain things make you who you are. How one event changes course of your life and how you view the world. If any of you have watched the movie 'The Butterfly Effect' you know what I am talking about. One simple conversation, one action, one tiny moment can change everything.

Sometimes I wish that I would have changed things in my life. Changed decisons that I made, friends that I had, people I wasn't as nice to as I should have been. But then I wonder how that would have affected who I am. I know that the things that I have done and the choices that I have made have made me the woman that I am today. And that's one thing that I would NOT change. I love who I am. I love where my life has taken me. Chandler and I have always said that the Rascal Flatts song 'God Blessed the Broken Road' is SO our song. Everything we did led us to where we are today.

So I guess what I am ultimately getting at is that, not matter what I've been through, no matter the mistakes that I've made, it's made me who I am. And as long as I love that person, that's all that matters.

More pictures of MY model...(yes, I own her now)

I'm pretty sure that Brinley is going to start FORBIDDING me to get anything new relating to my camera because anytime I do, guess who gets drug out on a photoshoot? (I think she secretly likes it but just pretends not to...)

So this time, I got some new photo editing software and needed some new pictures to edit. So off we were on yet another photoshooting extravaganza! We had a lot of fun. It's amazing how many people stare, like they've never seen anyone taking pictures before. But anyway, it was a great day with Mom, Breagan, myself, and of course, MY model...(like I said, I OWN her now!) Thanks guys for humoring me! I don't know what I'd do without you!

Random

I'm in love with shooting into the sun, and I saw the perfect opportunity with this. It's definitely Chan's pride and joy.

We went on the mountain to visit my mom and grandpa for the afternoon, and Breagan had a BLAST!

Summer is FINALLY coming to an end! ;)

Breagan just hanging out in her kitty cat pullover. She loves the cat ears!

Breag

So Bregan humored me for a few minutes this afternoon by letting me take some pictures of her. All in all, she was actually very good! And she was tired afterward so she layed down and took a nap!